Reaction to Diagnosis
A year after I was diagnosed, I was encouraged to write a set of poems. I was to write about anything I was passionate about so I decided to describe the emotions I felt when I was originally diagnosed. I chose to focus on three of the main feelings that I dealt with at some point in my weeks after diagnoses. These poems encompass how people can feel after learning some unwanted news in any area of their life.
Drowning in Sorrow
“Your life is about to change” On the rainy morning of July 28, 2014, I received those dreadful words. To escape the confusion of the room flooding with pain, I focused on the pitter-patter heard through the window. If only the raindrops could have washed away my newfound pain. A waterfall of tears rolled down my mother’s face as we received the news. As a stream of questions began to flood my brain. My dreams of utopia walked the plank, And began to slowly sink Deeper, and deeper, into the vast sea of unknowns. I was quickly floating away farther and farther from the life I’ve always dreamed of. The many storms I’ve already faced are incomparable to the deep blue sea of hardships, I am soon to swim through. My physical pain began to drift, Drift into an emotional wave of sorrow that rushed, Rushed right over me and spit me out into the reality of my new life. Am I going to let that rainy morning define the rest of my life? Caught in a Fiery Pit “Your life is about to change” On the blistering morning of July 28, 2014, I received those alarming words. The lifeless, sterile room around me became even smaller as my fears began to burn around me Suffocating me. As ideas sparked in my head of what could be wrong, Confusion kindled within, leaving the fear to grow even more ravenous. My ideal future had been snuffed right before me. Rather than listening how to extinguish the fire, I spilled gasoline on my new future life Igniting an unending cycle of despair and thirst for a better future. The fire burned me too deeply within; Leaving behind scars that will remain with me forever, Unless I let them heal completely by avoiding any flame that could start the cycle over again. Am I going to let that blistering morning define the rest of my life? Soaring Beyond the Expected “Your life is about to change” On the clear morning of July 28, 2014, I received those unanticipated words. Pausing to take it in, I let out a breath full of fear and sadness, and inhaled a sense of calmness and understanding. A gust of determination coursed throughout my entire being. That day I gained a new pair of wings. I just had to choose whether or not I wanted to jump out of the nest and fly. Even though there were going to be mountains in the way. I knew I needed to soar above the expectations that hung like a dark cloud over my head. I learned about my wings before they were fully grown, But supportive birds still flew in to help me learn how to control them Giving me confidence to reach new heights and and fly farther than anyone expected. I realized that everything that mattered to me was still within reach. I am not going to let that clear morning define the rest of my life! Choices “Your life is about to change” On the fateful morning of July 28, 2014, a choice determining how I was going to live the rest of my life needed to be made. Three simple choices to choose from. Let my news drown me in sorrow, Let my news burn my future with fear, Let my news strengthen me and help me fly above the unknown. God gives me the opportunity to live my life however I choose. I was given an opportunity to show everyone how I believe a true Christian should act. In true adversity, I chose to fly above Earthly problems and focus on striving for the God’s best. As human beings, it is sometimes easy to get caught up in the chaos surrounding our lives, But I believe it is important to push beyond the limits given to you, To dream farther than anyone can imagine, And to believe that even when life gives us tough choices it is important to choose the path God desires for his children. |
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